What should I do?

Maybe I should just give up.
Now that I've waited this long, it's been taken to another level.
Although it's almost time, I fear it's already too late.
I do not want to lose, I really don't, but there is only so much I can do.
Even if I did make my move, I'm very scared of the feeling of failure.

Should I just move on?
You would say I should, but this is the one thing that I truly care about.
This is the first time that I got this feeling of not wanting to lose it.
I can't just sit here and do nothing, or I will hate myself forever.
But if I fail, I will hate the obstacle instead.
Will I ever overcome this obstacle, and my own barrier made of fear...