Repeating history.

Well, its happening all over again.
But I can feel it's much worse this time.
Why can't I ever be as good?
Am I already at my limit?

I thought I've been learning.
But even after all this while,
it is still not enough
I thought I already have what it takes.
But the truth is not meant to be.

Why is this happening?
Am I asking for too much?
I know, the demand is high.
Is that why I'm not the one in priority?
No, it's because I keep messing up.

I do not wish to lose you, I really don't....
But I know, this is a battle which is hard for me to win...