Feeling nostalgic.

It's been quite some time since I listened to non-English songs ever since I started driving to college. Out of boredom, I decided to listen to the old mandarin and cantonese songs in my playlist. Its pretty nostalgic. Brought back a whole lot of memories, new and old, sweet and sour, happy and sad, most important of all, those of my first relationship. Theres this song that I used to like very much back then, I tried to avoid it after it ended because I'd rather not let memories haunt me. I guess now I've gotten over it. Listening to what used to be my favourite song really satisfied me. Sure, it may make me recall some of the memories that I tried real hard to forget, but memories will remain memories, however sad they may be.

I never knew that getting over the past and moving on is such a hard task. I thought it was just a matter of ending things up, stay alone for a while, calm down and the rest will be fine, but I was wrong. Its been about half a year now, and I'm still haunted by the memories. I may be able to temporarily forget them while busy with something else, but it just comes right back at me whenever I have nothing to do, or when listening to some songs. They say time heals, but I have no idea how long will it take for me, I can only hope that it wont be long. I'm really tired living like this.