This is for...y'know =p

This one is requested, you know who you are =p

It took 6 weeks,
that long for us to seek.
I did hesitate,
but I found courage, when our eyes meet.

It was first for us both,
I remember it was awkward.
But somehow we held on,
and kept going forward.

I know, it may be over,
I have regretted too.
I've held back my tears,
I wonder if it's the same for you.

Geez, so emotional. Wonder if you're gonna like it. =p

Something special?

Well, today was pretty interesting. Had to write up a 60 second radio commercial script for Advertising Copywriting class. I slacked off a while, played my PSP when I'm supposed to be discussing it with my team mates. When the lecturer finally caught me, I started to do the work. Ah well, she said I'm the best copywriter of the class anyway so I knew she wouldn't mind. (Show off)

My mates tried to create a script and asked me to simply translate them into English. But hell, they completely misunderstood what are we supposed to do, so I went and remake an entirely different script by myself. Being an avid listener to radio commercials, while driving or at home, it took me only a short time to come up with a script in the correct format based on what I've listened so far.

So here I am, acting as the announcer, and I tried to talk like how a radio announcer would, but it's really not easy. Still, I enjoy the moment where I start talking, and the chaotic classroom went silent. I gotta admit, I like the attention. =)

Got another praise from the lecturer again, maybe I'm just doing this subject so well because I'm very exposed to these kind of things. Next week, I'll have to make a television commercial and act it in front of the class, I'll just see how it goes. ;)

This is for myself.

Well, I can't make any assumptions now,
but I guess, I got beat.
Nothing else I can do,
but wonder why did the history repeat.

Although it's already clear,
what the result will be.
I can only hope for the best,
and not have anger within me.

Congratulate? Not my style.
As I know, its hard to accept.
What I've done in the past,
I can only regret.

Call it a poem, but this is the first ever...thing, that I wrote that actually rhymes for once. I can't criticize myself, so why don't you do it? =)

Finally...

...my computer is clear of shitty threats. There are consequences though, I had to remove nearly 100 songs from my playlist because they were infected with a dropper. Well I guess I can take this opportunity to clear some unwanted songs from my hard drive, and just re-download the songs that I want to continue listening to.

Really was a tough time with my connection blocked, and have programs crashing thanks to the dumb infection. After wiping my drive, it goes back to normal. All thanks to my friend (Fapping cat) for helping me to do it. Had to install using Windows Vista though, as his XP cd is scratched and cant be properly read by my drive.

I guess it's not all that bad, better visuals and functions, only need some time to get used to. I've begun liking my 2 year old computer as it is already =)

Repeating history.

Well, its happening all over again.
But I can feel it's much worse this time.
Why can't I ever be as good?
Am I already at my limit?

I thought I've been learning.
But even after all this while,
it is still not enough
I thought I already have what it takes.
But the truth is not meant to be.

Why is this happening?
Am I asking for too much?
I know, the demand is high.
Is that why I'm not the one in priority?
No, it's because I keep messing up.

I do not wish to lose you, I really don't....
But I know, this is a battle which is hard for me to win...

Latest addition to my collection

Yes, it was during PC Fair on the 2nd of August, I have purchased the Razer Tarantula gaming keyboard. At first I did not want the Battlelight attachment that is sold seperately, but once my friend heard that I will get a free limited edition Razer T-shirt, he offered to pay the price of the Battlelight so that he can get the shirt. I told him it's his loss, yet he persisted, saying that he want the shirt badly. So I reminded him it will be his loss as we paid the price.

It costed RM305 for the Tarantula, and RM65 for the Battlelight attachment.
It's freakishly huge because of the extra 10 fully programmable buttons, and the media player and imaging hotkeys at the side. A wrist rest below it with a glowing Razer logo. On top of it is the Battlelight attachment, which illuminates the keyboard in the dark. Seen here with my previously purchased Razer Deathadder gaming mouse. Here are the specs, taken from www.razerzone.com:-

• Anti-ghosting capability for up to 10 keys
• 32KB Razer Synapse™ onboard memory
• On-The-Fly Sensitivity™ profile switching
• 10 programmable gaming hotkeys
• 1000Hz Ultrapolling™ / 1ms response time
• Hyperesponse™ gaming keytop with fully interchangeable keys
• Headphone-out and microphone-in jacks
• Media center keys
• Two USB ports
• Gold-plated USB connector
• Razer Battledock™ for add-on accessories
• Approximate size: 522mm (length) x 220mm (width) x 33mm (height)

Turned off the lights, and turned on the Battlelight. It cant look any cooler than this. Glowing Razer logo and both the Tarantula and the Deathadder on top.
Side view of the Tarantula in the dark. Although the Battlelight is not really strong enough to fully illuminate all the keys, being able to light up all the QWERTY keys will be enough. I have completely no regrets in purchasing this expensive gaming keyboard as it proves to be very useful to me. It's responsive, it has so many functions and it's very quiet. Call it a waste of money, but I think the Tarantula is definitely worth the price.

Again, I shall repeat what I said back when I got my Deathadder.

-I bought the Tarantula with my own money
-This post is not to show off, only expressing my happiness
-I am not rich, its just that I can afford it, and I'm happy that I can
-If you are gonna flame, turn this window off
-If you are gonna show off YOUR stuff, do it somewhere else

It's happening again

I'm trying hard to understand
Yet, it seems so hard
Yes, I am standing firm to my goal
Still, obstacles, this time even more of them than last time
Talk about Deja Vu...

I am trying not to make it too obvious to anyone
Of course besides my target
But is it real that honesty the best policy?
Cuz theres a Mr Nice Guy, making it so darn noticeable
Should I, or should I not do that.

I'll just stay as myself
Never have the thought of losing
After all, they say I have my own good traits
Though I do not know what, I'm trying hard
Not hoping for the best, but expecting the best to happen this time around